My oldest companion is to not feel good and happy in me because I'm... well, not fat (I don't wanna be mean to myself!!) or curvy (I don't look gorgeous!) - but overweight! I am overweight! My BMI is higher than 32, my clothes are sizes 46-50 (Eurropean) , depending on where you buy them and I'm very aware as to how I look in different outfits because I am a public person, a role model and someone who takes that responsibility seriously. I have not been on a scale for a looon